Running in Winter

Winter Running

No one should have to run in winter. Let’s be clear about that. Skiing should be enough. But. There’s rain on snow and ice too loud and slush and sometimes bare ground on the shoulder seasons. So. There’s the bike trainer in the living room next to the stereo. There are sit-ups and yoga tapes. Hell, there’s the bathtub and the liquor cabinet, the bookshelves and the TV. There’s nothing that says you have to run in winter. But.

There’s also age and lethargy. There are creaky joints and caking arteries. There are missing brain cells scattered haphazard along trails and beside campfires, on interstate highways and in drafty kitchens. There are those fucking glossy magazines that suggest motivation should be filed under endorphins, desire for, when, in fact, it’s the flipside: entropy, fear of.

So. You dress by the fire and repeat: No one should have to run in winter. You sweep the snow from the porch, and walk down ice steps chopped into the bank, too steep, in shoes flimsy as slippers, trail runners, they say, as though trails only count in summer, not when shin deep in slush. You wear shoes with chains, or gaiters, and an iPod despite the threat of predators. (Would you really hear them coming anyway?) You wait past the gloaming, the crepuscular hour when they roam.

Then you run.

You run in the tire tracks, the real driven snow, or if the road’s been plowed to ice, along the shoulder where a skiff of snow softens the slip. You run through the dark woods past berms waist-high and out into the open, past a meadow where snow level is true — the plow pushes the other way — and sometimes it’s over your head.

There were years you ran only in shorts or a thin sweatshirt. Years you ran through orange groves, the smell of blossoms and rotting godknowswhat. And smog. Years you ran with a headlamp on drizzly bark-lined paths, the smell of wood pulp and commercial bakery. There are no smells now, none discernable, save the woodsmoke inversion, the only sound your shoes, the only tracks the deer.

This is what you get living here. Stuff you can’t explain. Solitude and silence, more prayer than play, more dark grey, a foothold, a footfall, one after the other, on the same stretch of sometimes-plowed road. There’s no gear, no training goal, even. Just morning. Coffee, run, shower, life. Repeat.

At home, you peel off wet socks and hang them by the fire, pull on a dry sweatshirt, put smoothie ingredients in the blender, stream radio from the outer orbits, watch wet flakes feather down, and think about the long novel on the bed stand or the seed catalog in the mail or the soup ingredients in the pantry.

When the flu hits, you’ll be stuck. Warm and dry with nothing to complain about. So you’ll complain about the fact that you need to run, even in winter, but you can’t. The truth is: You want to.

Long-time Mountain Gazette contributor Ana Marie Spagna is the author of “Potluck: Community on the Edge of Wilderness,” “Now Go Home: Wilderness, Belonging, and the Crosscut Saw” and “Test Ride on the Sunnyland Bus: A Daughter’s Civil Rights Journey.” She lives in Steheken, Washington.  

4 thoughts on “Running in Winter”

  1. Terrific writing. I could hear the crunch of YakTraks on the ice. Careful out there Ana Maria. I was trail running on New Year’s Eve at dusk (because I’m not all that bright), hit a patch of ice on a downhill and hyperflexed my left quad that separated from my kneecap. Ouch. The surgeon said there’s a good chance I’ll be running trails again in five months. Careful out there.

  2. Nice Write up…Im getting a bit older now and used to play hockey, after I ruined my shoulder I started running to stay in shape for the winter…and I love it.

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